Im in LOVE with my best friend!??? 10 points?

We have been friends since preK:} adorable much!?! Anyhow he comes over to my house about 2-3 times a week & we hang out, have fun you know the usual. But i KNOW he likes me, cuz i was in a coma for 5 months, & he would come in & well..talk to me haha. I would never answer back(DUHH!) but it was still nice. One day he said "Angie i know you cant hear me but ive been in love with you since the 4th grade.... AHHH that feel nice to say damnnn" lol sometimes when i was in my coma i could hear conversations, like my mom always came in and cried.. and i could almost always hear what was going on it was the weirdest thing. My mom also said "angie that boy must love you when you was in a coma he came in just to hold your hand and talk to you almost every day." Anyhow NOT what im trying to say, but he was at my house and he finally made his move. I was laying in my bed and he kinda playfully pushed me down and started kissing my neck and yeah omg. All rated R from then. Like idk he must have new i wanted him to or something cuz he just changed his mind so quick he was like **** friendship, and well we lost our virginity to eachother but we are not dating i kinda feel like a slut. But ugh wtf? Should we date is it cool that i NEVER stop thinking ababoutim? I would seriously cry NONSTOP if he had to move or something. What should i do i dont like getting this close to people. ahh:(