Do I need help, eating Disorder?

Constantly now I have been binging a TON. An hour ago I had 6 cookies,pasta, rice, bread with nutella, almonds, and cereal. I weigh between 125- 130, somewhere in that range. I cant stop myself when I do it this is the second time I've done it this week. I need to lose weight, but when i do and actually put in will power I end up barley eating anything, or depriving myself from everything, then in the night I eat and eat and cannot stop myself. I am terrified to eat carbs, and sometimes when I eat sweets I chew it then spit it out. I cannot think anymore, I hate it to have the sudden urge for food. I have lost 6lbs. in one week a couple weeks ago, and I know that's not healthy. I'm scared that my binging will get worse, and I'm terrified to tell someone. This is how I cope with my emotions, starving myself and then I eat nonstop. Do any of you have advice oe what should I do?