Dream about being a german soldier?

Ok well I'm a 16 year old intellectial, and I've always had a fascination with being a soldier, especially in the army, and being an officer. Noone in my family has been in the army, it always fascinated me. I'm not sure if its cause of my family history, my family fought for the germans in WW2, and my dad was a skinhead, but lately ive been having obsessive images in my head of a german soldier. i read about WW2 nonstop, and im very interested in battles, especially the battle of the buldge. more interestingly, im obsessed with luxembourg and the 5th panzer division, which fought there. i got images of snow and being shot and blood everywhere. i have a big freckle above my left ear freckle above my right ear. ive come to the conclusion that i was shot there and was killed. am i completely crazy, is it cause of my family, or is my conclusion likely right?